Sometimes I feel at a disadvantage. It’s hard to manage the endocrine function of my pancreas.
Sometimes, I feel like my body failed me. But most times, I don’t let it get to me.
Other times, I do.
I could let today be one of those times. One of the times where I’m strong, where I’m powerful and courageous, where I’m the bright light for someone else. But that’s not the case this time.
Today, I acknowledge that I have been *so* strong for *so* long, and it’s okay to let go and feel. It’s okay to be sad. To be vulnerable. It shows I’m human.
The scariest part is the weight that I feel. It’s the pressure that I feel. The pressure I put on myself to be perfect with my blood sugars because if I don’t, so many things can go wrong. I want to aim for perfection. I don’t want to settle for anything less.
But perfection is where most of us get into trouble. There is no perfect, there is only persistence and learning.
So what’s the best thing that I can do? Change my lifestyle and help others live with diabetes.
I want to resist it, because it’s not fair that I‘ve been given this responsibility.
I don’t want to do it. I want to eat whatever I want. I want to drink without worry. I want to run without fear.
But I accept this reality. And I deserve to live a long and healthy life. So I’ll do this. Why? For myself. Because I’m worth it. We all are.
My Health Details
- Type of Diabetes:Type 1
- Low blood sugar instances per week:1-3 Instances
- Daily number of times checking blood sugar:7+ times/day
- Managing Diabetes with:Insulin Shots